One Of Our Favourite Place

The place where we first met.

The place where we first held hands.

The place where we first hug.

The place where we first kissed.

The place where we go after dinner, before sending me home.

The place where we go for picnic.

The place where we had our mini bbq.

The place where we go cycling.

Love it when it is peaceful, with sea breeze blowing towards us.

So relaxing~

Not Easy

It is not easy to get integrated into a new group of people.

Especially when that group of people is so closed with many years of relationship.

Of coz I cant blame anyone but sumtimes I just feel sad abt it.

It really feels nice when people treat u as part of them. Ask u to join them for lunch everyday. Ask u to go out shop every once in a while. Involve u in their activities and outings.

Basically u feel u haf lots of frens. U dun feel lonely.

That was how I felt before I left my previous work place.

In my new workplace, I’m seated far away from my team, therefore lowering the chances of interaction with them.

I do not really know what is happening over that side. I do not wanna appear to be so free and walk around and kpo around. Thus the only interaction time is lunch.

Sumtimes I feel extra, especially when I am not able to participate in their conversation or activities. Especially when I dun understand what they were talking abt, the things tat happened in the past. The connection of past happenings to current issues.

It is not easy.

I guess all these need time.

I hope not too long.

The Not So Little Black Dot

I removed the not so little black dot abt 1.5 mths ago. But the whole healing process was not as smooth as it should be.

1. The white dissolvable thread was BROKEN and the wound opened up. Went back to the doc the day after the surgery and restitch a blue ugly thread outside the skin.

2. Abt a week later, the wound looked like infected with yellow thingy. Doc not in SG and thus went to see the associated doc instead. The associate doc felt that it was healing well and the yellowish thing is not infection. It's just accumulation of the cream I applied. He took out the stitch.

3. Went back to Doc for review after he was back in SG and he removed the white stitch for me.

4. The holes of the stitch head looked infected. Went back to Doc to check and true enuff, infection. Injection was done.

5. 1 month after the surgery, went back for review. No infection already but the wound is still very red. Doc helped to use laser on the wound, supposed to lighten the colour.

6. 2 wks later, today, the wound is still as red. Morever, there seems to be a lump. It is as big as the original not so little black dot, and it is hard. Worried abt it and went back for chk up.

The moment I stepped into the clinic, doc was with the nurses at the counter. He looked at my wound and said, wah lao y like tat! haha I think he is pretty frustrated with all the nonsense tat happened on the wound area. He then said u very ke lian very xin ku hor. I said no la I jsut feel very ma fan. Then all of the sudden, he pat my head and say ke lian! I was stunned! er... I noe tat the whole clinic felt that I'm a young little ger and tot tat I'm still schooling and stuff, but hello I'm not tat young leh.. or did the doc feel like I'm his daughter at tat moment? haha.

Anyway he helped to laser again and injected some med. This will help to flatten the lump and lighten the colour. He told me tat this is the first time tat such surgery has such result, usually the healing is quite fast and good. Well, guess I broke his record! He said tat for normal cases if there is any redness after the surgery, he would charge the patient for the laser shots. But he said tat coz I am very nice (maybe is coz i nv complain in spite of all these happenings) he helped me with all these for free, without extra charge. And I will haf to go back 2 wks later for the 2nd laser and injection session. Doc said that he felt bad abt this whole thing. But actually I do not think it is his fault. As many ppl heal much faster than me. And b4 the surgery I already signed a form saying tat there will be chances of having scar after the surgery. But doc actually did his best and helped all he can without charging me 1 more cent.

Well, I think I am the onli ma fan patient he has. haha. But I guess in a way, I didnt lugi at all coz I made every cent I spent worth it with so many follow up action.. well I rather not haf all these.. haha

Princess and The Frog

Watched this cartoon movie this afternoon and found it quite a funny and nice show. There are so many parts tat makes me and my colleague laughed. Be it lame or stupid or jsut funny, we had quite a relaxed and happy 98minutes.

It is a typical happily ever after fairytale. Yet it actually brought across some message to the audiences.

In life, we do not have to fulfil all our wants. What is impt is our need. In the show, princess wants to haf a restaurant of her own as that was her dad (who had passed away) and her dream. However, she does not need tat. What she needs is love.

Same goes to me. I want to haf a wedding tat I like. I want to take pre wedding photo shoots with beautiful backgrd. I want to haf surprises for all my guests at my wedding. I want to haf a memorable wedding. But do I need all these? Maybe not.. What I need is love. What I need is to be with my other half. What I need is we are happy together and haf a happy future.

And so I will try to keep tat in mind!

Also, a simple sentence might bring across the message A with you needing to do way A. But often we do not see that there is actually another way B, which can also result in the same message A. So if you tried way A and it fails, dun give up as there is still plan B!

In the movie, the frog can only turn back into the prince if he kiss the princess. However, due to some reasons, he failed to do so. But he din think of another princess. He didnt think of another way. When he married the other female frog, and kissed, both of them turned back into human! Tat is because after the lady frog is married to the male frog who is supposed to be a prince, the lady frog will be a princess and so when the male frog kissed his wife, he is also kissing a princess and thus ta da~

So sumtimes if we are not able to achieve what we tot we should, do not give up. Think of the same thing from another point of view and u may see another answer!

We Want It Our Way

It's our marriage, our wedding.

Once a lifetime.

And we want it our way.

I do not wan to regret years down the road.

I wan to haf a wedding according to how we, the couple, want it to be.

From wedding preparation, to pre-wedding photo taking, to solemisation, to reception, to honeymoon.

The chinese customary, well since we are the newer generation, we can leave it to you. But other than tat, we jsut hope to haf a wedding of OUR OWN and not anyone else.

I wan to haf a happy and blissful wedding.

In our preferred way.