我要走了

两年多前，我加入了目前的公司。这是我毕业后的第一份工作。说真的，当时的我并没有特别喜欢或特别向往做projects.因为说真的，我根本不知道这份工作究竟是做什么的。当时的我，还蛮想要做记者的。但是，这projects的job offer比报馆的早，于是就签约，成了目前公司的一份子。

开始工作后，觉得自己的工作很有意义，也觉得自己很喜欢自己的工作。常常和身边的朋友说，我真得很幸运，毕业后第一分工就能找到自己那么喜欢的一份工，太太太幸运了。

但是，渐渐的，我开始觉得我对这份工的热忱似乎渐渐消失。从每天开开心心去做工，变成每天拖着脚步上班去。可说是360度的大转变。为何？我想原因有好几个。但不管原因是什么，我觉得是该走了。

想想，我在这里两年多，学了很多东西，但是我还要继续在这里吗？我是否该去其他的地方看看外面的世界。这两年多来，我曾经问过自己，我是否想要试试看其他的工作呢？如果我继续呆在这里，我会满足吗？我还年轻，不就是应该出去闯闯，学学新的东西，说不定还有很多其他我同样喜欢的工作呢？

对我而言，工作占据了生活的一大部分。我们每天花在工作上的时间，比吃饭、睡觉、出去、陪家人、陪朋友、陪伴侣的都还要多，那么我一定要做一份我喜欢的工作，才能开开心心的过每一天。

但说真的，要找一份自己真的喜欢的工作，说来容易，做起来却是难啊！

从几个月前开始找，到申请，到等电话，到去面试，到再等电话，不容易。就因为申请的工作都是自己有兴趣的，所以就更紧张了。

从第一次面试，到接到电话叫我去第二次，到之后以为没希望却又接到好消息，这一路来，我的内心是多么的害怕、多么的焦虑，然后终于松了一口气。

我目前的公司不需要我们呈交辞职信，只需要上网按个按钮就行了。

今天早上，我按了。

那一刻的心情，是复杂的。

开心是因为将要做另一份我喜欢的工作。

紧张是因为将要面对另一个新环境。

害怕是因为不知道我是否能够适应那一边的生活。

伤心是因为我将要离开了。

两年多，说长不长，说短不短。但是在目前的公司也有很多美好的时光。我真的很高兴能够认识了这么多的同事，更高兴能够交了这么多的好朋友。有很多时候，战场上都是敌人，很少能够交到谈得来的好朋友。也要谢谢‘长辈们’对我的照顾，让我在这两年多里学了不少东西。

一起在pantry吃饼干、一起去吃午餐、一起去逛街、一起在rec room打电动、玩foosball、一起去看戏、一起去旅行、一起去site recee、一起八卦等等的点点滴滴，开心不开心的，我都不会忘记，我都会把它们放在我心中的一个角落，关上门，上个锁，永远都会牢牢地记住。

接下来的路是怎样的，我真的不知道。只希望一切顺顺利利吧。

Zi Zai Vegetarian

Last Sat was 1st day of the mth (in chinese calendar), after going to HDB hub and site visit at Punggol, Lubby and I brought my parents to have vegetarian food at Tampines area.

Consulted Cass as she is a vegetarian, and she recommend me to read her sis blog abt all the vegetarian food and found this outlet at Tamp area.

Went there to try and I would say that the service is gd and the food is gd too!

We ordered a few dishes and shared.

As read on Cass sis blog, the prata is nice and thus we gave it a try too. And indeed it was very nice! It is cripsy and not oily at all! And we just keep eating and eating.

The dishes we ordered includes the mixed vege.. which I like also since I like to take vege anyway.. haha

Sweet and sour pork.. its nice.. lubby ate a lot.. :x

Hot plate tofu.. the sauce is very nice.. esp to take with rice.. yum yum

and also cai pu fried egg.. but I would prefer more cai pu coz im a cai pu fan.. hehe..

Overall the food is not bad and I would say its worth a try, even if u are not vegetarian. Like Lubby, who is sumone who cant live without meat and dun like vege, he find the food not bad and he was surprisingly not hungry til dinner time!

Add: Blk 801, Tampines Ave 4, #01-281

Sicky Me

Yes I'm sick again...

My fam doc really should give me a VIP card as I visit him like almost every mth, or once every 2 mths or less...

Was already feeling a bit unwell in the morning. Took flu med in office. Then felt a bit warm and tot fever might be coming, so quickly pop 2 panadols.

After work, went to see doc as I know the flu or sore throat wun disappear on their own and I knew for sure they will just worsen.

When the doc see me, he asked, wats wrong this time? I said, sore throat again lor. Then he looked thru my records and said, it's quite frequent huh.. I said, yah. dunno why, I already am taking vit c everyday leh..

Had no choice but to take that super ex and strong antibiotics again.. just 5 days of antibiotics cost me $36. Together with other med, I donated $56 to the clinic.

Lucky I went to see the doc, coz the pain in my throat worsen at night. Just by swallowing saliva, it already hurt like siao.. :(

And throughout the night, I couldnt really slp coz I keep waking up coz of the pain and swollen feeling I have. Moreover, I was having block nose.

This morning, I could hardly talk coz of the pain and the swollen throat. As I had MC from the doc yst, I decided to rest at home and not spread the germs to my colleagues in office also..

This morning, I could feel my

中秋节要到了

熊熊买了两只猪仔给我。

Our Love Nest

So looking foward to it.

We received the letter from HDB on Friday. Our appt to select our units will be on 1st Oct 2009 at 2.15pm. :)

Went down to TPY HDB Hub todae with my parents to take a look at the 3d model. Well we have more or less decided the blks and units we prefer. We will need to come up with a list of the units.. maybe 55 of them since our que number is 55. But of coz we hope we can get those in the top of our list! *pray hard*

Drove down to Punggol site to take a look and feel so excited.. trying to image how it will be when our flats are built and we will be staying from there.. so nice!

I'm sooooo looking forward to having our own place! :)

Samsung Omnia II

Got part of my bday present in advance today.. Samsung Omnia II.

After getting it, tried to use it.. but I can only say tat smart phone is really smart, and it just shows me how stupid I am.

I might need a long time to adapt to this fone.

It's really very very different from the normal fone.

And I have already encountered sooooo many problems.. sianz..

But I still like this fone and I'm sure after some time I will be able to use this fone like a normal fone and being able to know its function at my finger tips!

Anyway thanks Lubby for the advance bday gift! Muacks!

Happy Photos

Just some random happy photos~

I was in love with this ring. Everytime when we drove pass any bus with this ad, I would see, look, stare.. went to the stall to take a look at the real thing some time back. Not as nice as the pic.. and it's EXPENSIVE. $21k... -_-

The teddy from the flowers Lubby got me. Brought him out the other time. Cute teddy.


Bear and Pig kissing~ haha.. I tot they would have been bored sitting next to each other for so many days already.. so put them in such a position which they can kiss all day all night... wahahaha...

Felt like painting my nails this way, with two colours.. and so I did it. :)

Guys keeping eyes open

Was on the topic of r/s and guys with my colleagues today.

Is it true that many of the guys out there actually keep their eyes open big big for potential candidates out there? even if they haf gf already, they will see see look look, if there is sumone out there who is more pretty, attractive etc, he may juz dump the current one and go for the new ger?

Of coz I am not saying ALL guys are like tat? But is it tat most guys are like tat?

We have many examples ard us. Guys going after gers that have big boobs, trying their luck with pretty gers, flirting ard with pretty gers... even if they are already attached. Some may even be prepared to break up with the current gf just for some other ger out there.

Of coz guys will not have that thinking or making that move if the ger did not send any approving signals..

After trying luck with ger A, wooing her by all means, no results or she ended up with some other guy, or she already has a bf, the guy will change his target to another ger which he may find her attractive.

Instead of just putting all his effort and time on one particular ger, why not throw a fishing net and see if he can catch more fishes. The guy can try his luck with many gers at the same time, calling different gers every night, going with different gers everyday etc, jsut to try his luck to find the most suitable one.

Is it true that when guys reach a certain age, maybe 30 or 30+, if they are not in a r/s, or in an not so happy r/s, they will start looking out for potential partners. They will jsut try one after another, til they find a ger who can accept them. Therefore we see examples when ger A turn down this guy, this guy will try to date ger B. Or comments like 'i should have wooed her last time'when the guy see the ger is in a r/s.

Again I stressed that Im not saying all guys are like tat, but the life examples ard us is just proving us correct that some or most guys are like tat. And this may affect the single ladies' thinking. Single gers will not like guys to be like tat, if she wans to have a serious r/s. Single gers will worry that she might get cheated or hurt by such guys. And these guys with such behaviours or thinking will just create a longer distance between themselves and the gers. They are not giving the single gers any confidence. Instead they are just taking all the confidence that single gers might have earlier on.

So guys, what are ur opinion? wat are ur thinking?

Organ Transplant

Dr Ken brought the computer to the hospital yst for a full body check up. He diagnosed that it needed an organ tranplant badly. However, there was no suitable donar~ And we might haf to wait for a few mths before we can get a suitable donar for the computer.

Therefore, after my event, Dr Ken and I went down to SLS to purchase the organ needed. And then we went back to the hospital and Dr Ken performed a 5hours plus operation on the computer. The computer had a successful motherboard transplant. At least I hope so.

Hopefully my computer will stay healthy and guai guai as I have spent so much money, time, and effort (by Dr Ken) on this illness. Hopefully it has fully recovered from the sickness!

My Favourite

Met Lubby after work to go Comex as I need to get a new monitor. Lubby surprised me with Royce Chocolate Potato Chips~ The other time I kept saying I want to eat, but everytime when we went Suntec, I was always sick and thus couldn't eat and so didn't buy. And then sometimes I just felt too sinful and thus asked him not to buy. And todae when I reached Suntec before him, suddenly I was thinking abt this! And the next thing was he gave me this little surprise. :) We always haf 心灵感应 one lor.. :P Anyway opened it at home and it was nice! salty and sweet... my mummy likes it and my brother likes it too!

Anyway back to Comex. We went there early at 5+ and it was already so crowded~ Lubby walked in frt of me, pulling me behind him. He said that he bumped into ppl dunno how many times. And there was this Ah Neh who tot Lubby would give way, but of coz he didn't, and end up the Ah Neh bumped into Lubby's chest and got bounced back! wahahah.. too bad I didn't get to witness that!~ Anyway following close behind him, I still ganna knocked, bumped or wateva quite many times.. -_-

Wanted to get my Philips very nice monitor but Lubby read some reviews and concluded that it does not really worth $399. And so we went ard searching for other monitor and decided to bring LG some 3000 model home.. it's pretty and quite cheap! It costs only $238.

I also got myself a set of wireless keyboard and mouse which Lubby felt it was a good deal~ :) And the total $ I spent for all these items are less than the Philips monitor that I wanted to get last time!

And then we went home and Lubby helped to fix my monitor, keyboard and mouse but who noes, my cpu is still sick~! It just auto shut down.. :( Lubby spent abt 1+hr and yet still couldn't find out wat's wrong and so he decided to bring it home for a full body check up. And if needed, he will perform operation(s) on my cpu and hopefully I can see my cpu soon!!! Thanks Lubby~

星星的泪光 -- 关颖

最近，我再追看《心星的泪光》。

某一集播完后，有一段短短的《星星的泪光》MV。看着看着，不禁流下了泪水。我想，如果你有看着部戏，你就会知道我留下眼泪的原因。如果你没看过这部戏，也没关系，一边听听这首好听的歌曲，一边看看美美的关颖吧。

The Built-with-love-computer

is sick.. :(

All the while, the monitor has been throwing temper every now and then. And all I have to do is switch it off and den on again and it will be fine.

But the day before yst, it started to get serious. And yst, it has officially bid gd bye to me. Ya lubby said that the monitor is very old (he dig it out from some place of his hse and let me use first..) and that's y it is dead...

But I was still hoping for a miracle to happen today and so I tried to switch on my computer and see if the monitor is working.

After I pressed the power button, not only there is nuthin shown on the screen (which might be normal since the monitor is dead alr yst..), the keyboard light is not on, and there is no sound from the CPU (when I can usually hear the sound quite clearly whenever I switch on the computer). Then the next thing, I held the power button to switch it off BUT THERE WAS NO RESPONSE!!! Have to switch off the main button at the back of the CPU. And after trying a few times, the same problem occurs...

There is nuthing I can do now.. except to wait for my personal IT expert to do a check on Thursday.

Really hope that my CPU will be ok. It's built with love and no other PC can be replaced! :(

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

For my dearest Lubby. :) Muacks~

Boots

Just when I've decided not to get any boots and just wear the old ones I have, we saw this pair of Timberland boots which is quite nice and comfy.

Tried it on and though it's just junior size, it suits me!~ The ladies ones are actually $100 more than the junior ones... and since I can fit into the junior one, and they look the same, so I just got the junior ones. The funny thing is, the bigger size of the junior ones, the more expensive it is. Size 34 cost $139 and size 37.5 (which is the size that I got) cost $199!

And Lubby has kindly offered to buy the boots for me! (with my reimbursement of $0.50 to him for yi si yi si..) I'm sumone who wun wanna spend so much on a pair of shoes or even on myself, but Lubby said that this is a very gd pair of boots and worth the money, so we got it lor. And since he offered to get me this, and since I would rather spend the same amt of money on him instead of myself, I got him a new tripod! :)

I will have to season my boots by wearing them at home to walk ard, squat and jump, and even to slp, as suggested by my dearest Lubby. haha. Now I have nice, comfy and durable boots for my China trip, and Jap trip next year, as well as future trips to colder countries! :)

Balloting Result

Thank you HX for informing me that the ballot result is out! Coz the letter from HDB mentioned it will be end of Sept and so we didn't go and check the status.

After receiving the sms, I immediately logged into HDB website and checked our que number.

Total number of 5-room flats: 154, and our balloted que position is 55.

Thank god!!!!!

I would think tat, with this number, we are quite confirm in being able to get a unit, and maybe if lucky enough, we will be able to get the unit we prefer.

However, I'm very worried about one thing. We will be selecting the flat in Oct 2009 and I will be out of SG for 1wk+ during that month! I'm so worried that our appointment will fall on that period of time! I'm not sure if it is ok tat only one party go over to select, if ok den Lubby can go if the appt date is during that wk when I'm not ard. Because I'm worried tat if we cant make it for the appt, they will push us back to the back of the que and then we have less units to choose from! :(

Oh man.. I can only pray hard that the appt will be before or after my holiday.

Dear God, Please help us!

The Reason

I have been eating a lot recently, despite the fact dat I noe I should stop eating. I have been snacking non stop, in office or at home or when watching movie (I dun used to snack during movies one lor!).

And as a result my tummy is getting bigger and bigger, arms getting more and more flabby, face getting rounder and rounder, despite the fact that I do exercise still...

All these are happening more frequently nowadays.

And I think I know what is the reason.

I am having eating disorder. Not not eating, but eating non stop.

Whenever I'm feeling angry, sad, unhappy abt the things happening to me, stressed...

That's bad! But I can't stop myself from eating because of all the shitty things that are happening, from Monday to Friday. Weekends are the only 2 days when I can escape from the irritating system, disgusting people, stupid suggestions and comments.

At this rate that this is going, in no time, I will become a big fat pig!

So, how to be slim again?

Only when I can be away from the irritating system, disgusting people, stupid suggestions and comments forever...

And when will it be?

My Little Prince

The moment we stepped into Lubby's hse, Ryan asked me to read story books to him. I asked if it's ok for me to finish my dinner first, before reading to him, and he said NO! OMG.. so naughty! So I asked him to sit next to me at the dining table, so I can read to him and eat at the same time.

And this naughty boy obviously noes the words of the books but he jia jia say dunno and want me to read to him. And half way thru the books, he will even asked me questions like 'what is this?' while pointing at the pic. After I answer him he will say 'yes!'. So it becomes Teacher Ryan and student Vivian instead!

Then I gave him the doraemon toy I got from eating Happy Meal during lunch. I wanted to get him the new one, apple tree pen but I tot since they still have last wk's offer, the rolling stamp, it will be nicer for him to play. And the moment he saw the toy, he knew he needed paper to stamp. I think he has got one at home already. Anyway, we played with the rolling stamp. And yes he screamed and giggled and laughed so loud! haha. Then he folded the paper into half and said that it is a laptop~ and he taught me how to use it! When I asked for a mouse, he gave me the rolling stamp to use as the mouse.

Then he gotta go home early as todae is the 15th day of 7th month. So I bid bye bye with hugs and kisses from him. So sad.. didn't get to play with him much.. but no worry, I will see him again tomorrow! :)

I've Got Mail!
Haha.. my bro said that the postman pressed the door bell non stop and before giving time to allow anyone to respond, he rang the bell again.


So happy that such a responsible postman deliver my impt card to me!


And thank you my bro for helping me receive the mail~ :)